(IVY) Go The Distance

[Cassidy Logan Spears]

OUTFIT

Cassidy had been working at Westridge House for 5 days now and had taken a chance. He had asked the principal for permission to start a Glee Club. After much deliberation, the principal had agreed. Cassidy didn't like to boast, but he was a good singer and all the money he had made for singing, he had saved for his daughter... If he ever found her again.

He took a seat at the desk in the music room and looked around. This would probably be his home for the whole time he was at school. He sighed and grabbed his laptop, starting to type up letters to form tutors and making a poster. His peace was disturbed when he heard the classroom door open and someone walked in, "Can I help" he asked, not looking up from the screen.

[Ivy Faith Jonas]

Ivy had a free period, she didn't know what to do so she walked up to the music room it was usually empty. She was alone like normally apart from sometimes she was with Adrianna her best friend or tagged along with her brother Ryan, though he wasn't really her brother he cared for her she didn't like tagging along she felt bad and hated knowing that she is adopted it made her feel low. Ivy sneaked into the bathroom before she walked into the music room and sat against a closed cublical and lifted her jacket sleeve up and grabbed her razor from her bag and felt the pain scar across her skin the razor peirced her skin the blood fell rom herarm.

After she felt a lot better from the scars and pain was inside her body she entered the Music room hearing a voice she gasped and stopped "sorry I'm Ivy, I just usually come in here at free period to sing" she said and nodded "sorry I'll go" she didn't notice the new teacher there, she has heard about him that there was a new teacher but she never saw him and the school.

[Cassidy Logan Spears]

Cassidy looked up at the delicate sound of a females voice. His eyes widened, it couldn't be her. He stopped typing and stood, "You can stay. I honestly don't mind, I was only making a few posters for the school's new Glee club". He returned to his chair and sighed, "Maybe you will try out".

His mind was racing. She looked so much like that little girl who he had hurt, who he left when she was only five. He closed the poster and opened a web-link, deciding to email her mum, if it even was her. He decided against it and reopened the poster...

[Ivy Faith Jonas]

Ivy watched the new teacher stand up as she came in, bitting her lip she listened to what he was saying to her she nodded and didn't say anything for a moment she just hovered in the doorway and then nodded finally smiling a little. "oh, I'm sorry I just come in here to let my feelings out I don't mean to interfere" she said to him as she walked slowly into her room and to the piano at the side of the room.

"if I'm in the way just tell me to leave" she told him as she ran her fingers across the piano keys and took a deep breath in and let it out closing her eyes as she sung.

All of you
Shaped me into what I am
Carried out the bitter man
Do you have a master plan?
Oh no

Somewhere I
Let all my defenses down
Never thought to turn around
And you did not make a sound

See it turning red
Like a bullet through the chest
Lay me down to rest
It's a lover's final breath

And I found out
Nothing comes without a cost
And life was just a game we lost
Do you have a better thought?
Oh

Now you're gone
And nothing's ever felt so wrong
A moment seems to last so long
Do you have a fear so strong?

See it turning red
Like a bullet through the chest
Lay me down to rest
It's a lover's final breath

Now I die
Kiss your tender lips goodbye
Pray to god who hears my cry

Her eyes started to water a she wiped away the tears before the teacher could see. She pushed her sleves up feeling hot in the room but she felt even worse, she took her jacket off from her body revealing her scars, the new ones the blood stained the deep pain that was engraved in her skin, she forgot.

[Cassidy Logan Spears]

Cassidy nodded and stared at the screen. He looked up to survey the girl again and sighed. He closed his eyes and held his head in his hands as he listened to her song. He listened to her beautiful voice and and nodded along with the tune. He sighed and wiped the tear from his eye. This girls voice was powerful.

When she finished he stood and then recoiled slightly as she removed her jacket. She had scars and fresh cuts covering her arms. He walked over to her and sat next to her on the piano bench, "There is an easier way, and I'm not just saying that because I'm a teacher". He sighed and nodded, "You are really talented. I'd like to offer you the first place in the glee club"

[Ivy Faith Jonas]

Ivy bit her lip as she looked up after she calmed down watching to teacher come beside her, she looked down then back at him and then blinked a few times her eyes met a scar on her skin, she frooze then quickly grabbed her jacket and wrapped it around herself, something snapped inside of her she forgot about her scares, why didn't she notice?

"I..I... I can't sorry you shouldn't of seen... I must..." she stuttered out her eyes low and tears falling from them, her body didn't move any more she looked at the teacher for a long moment, keeping her eyes on him, he looked familiar. "glee?" she asked keeping still and shaking, the teachers eyes felt sharp inside of her "I should ask my brother, from my family who adopted me first" she told him, Ryan knows everything first.

[Cassidy Logan Spears]

Cassidy stood as he saw the girl grabbing her jacket and wrapping herself up in it, "You don't have to be ashamed. I want to help you". He said, walking to his wheelie chair and sighing, "Look, I won't say anything to anyone, although I should".

Cassidy noticed the girl shaking and told her too calm down. He didn't like seeing her shaking. He nodded and smiled, "Yes a Glee Club. It's an all music club. You would have the chance to sing show songs and ballads. You would get the chance to perform at sectionals and regional's, maybe even nationals". The thought had him excited... He really wanted to succeed at this. He raised an eyebrow when she said about asking her brother, "You have to ask him everything? Can't you do after school clubs on your own?"

[Ivy Faith Jonas]

"But I should be ashamed, I'm the one doing this to myself I don't see anyone else around me trying to hurt them selves" Ivy said to the teacher still crying and she blinked a few times and looked around for a tissue, but she didn't have any. "I'm not proud of it, but please just don't tell anyone, if anyone found out... My brother he would take me away from the school to help don't please" she said quickly to him panicking inside her head she was shaking even more in fear her secret will be told.

Ivy listened to the teacher talking about this glee club, she hasn't seen any around before she's heard some things about it but that is all, she never said anything about singing in public before though. "it sounds..fun, no I don't need to tell my brother everything but he loves me, I love him he has always been there for me, I have to ask him first, he is protective" she told the teacher bitting her lip hard she wanted to hide away and just mark her arms to make the pain and how careless she was to punish herself.

[Cassidy Logan Spears]

Cassidy held back a tear and shook his head, "You shouldn't be ashamed. As long as you justify why you do and you understand you could get help. Most people who see this would freak out, insist you want to kill yourself. Most people doesn't understand it's only self harm, a form of release". He sighed and took a tissue out of his pocket handing it to her... "A while back I suffered the same thing, but I stopped myself before it was too late". Cassidy rolled his sleeve up and showed Ivy the bottom parts of his arms, "These are about 8 years old. I went through a tough patch and this happened. These scars will never go away". He nodded, "You have to understand that I will keep everything my students say to me a secret".

Cassidy sat down again, wheeling himself closer to her. "Glee club is fun and gives everyone a chance to be themselves". He smiled at her and nodded, "I understand he may be protective, but if he has an issue with it... He can come along as well. If he can't sing, there are plenty off jobs he could do".

[Ivy Faith Jonas]

Ivy took the tissue from the teacher as she wiped her tears away calming down a little then she nodded and sat down again listening to what he was saying to her, she pressed down hard on her bottom lip, she never knew a teacher would tell her this "sir you didn't need to tell me" she told him then asked "do you have a kid sir?" she asked him, he seemed to be nice he would be a good dad but she felt a bit afraid that something inside her told her not to trust him or say anything but she felt the need to stay there.

She looked at the time it has only been 25 minutes she had ages "can I stay in here till I've calmed down? Please?" she asked him she didn't want walk out the room now and get looked at for having tears down her face, her makeup running and feeling awful, she put her arms around herself to keep herself from breaking down even more.

[Cassidy Logan Spears]

Cassidy shurgged, "I didn't have to tell you but I knew it would make you feel better". He couldn't quite believe it had worked himself. He sighed, "Also, it proves that, I will keep your secret, as you know mine". He then listened to her question and closed his eyes, a tear slipping down his cheek, "I do have a daughter. I haven't seen her since she was 5. She would be your age now. I was a horrible father. I didn't ever deserve her". He looked away from her and wiped his face.

When she asked if she could stay, he wasn't sure if he could face it. He nodded, "Sure you can kiddo" he said, his strongest voice coming through. It always did when he was upset. He smiled and looked at her, "Are you cold?"

[Ivy Faith Jonas]

Ivy nodded then suddenly went stiff, she got up fast and moved away, backing into the far wall "you... you gave your daughter up for adoption didn't you? You left her after you... after... after you rrrr...raa..raped her" she said crying, her words were hard to get out from her mouth the pain of actually saying the words out loud, he was her dad? The music teacher, at her school, right in front of her. Her body was shaking again, her heart pouncing, she was up against the wall "You!" she hissed loudly breaking down onto the floor her arms around her legs, if no one knew the story behind why she was like this she would look mental but right now she didn't care, she was so afraid.

"No! why did you come here!" she said loudly again her voice was broken into sobs, the red rims were formed around her eyes, painful and sad her eyes said she was afraid in danger, she needed Ryan, her brother to help her, she needed Adrianna but she knew they was in lesson's. Ivy was alone, with, with her dad, she knew it was her dad he said he hasnt seen his daughter since she was 5 years old, she was 5 years old when that happened to her and was put up for adoption after he was more likely pleased with himself. After that she never ever saw her real parents again, she was adopted she felt more safe with her new family but she always had that stuck in her mind, which made her harm herself, she would never stop.

[Cassidy Logan Spears]

Cassidy stood and turned to face her. He didn't want to harm her ever again. He nodded, "Yes, I did... That is why I am a horrible father. I never deserved you Ivy. I was mentally unstable and I couldn't live with myself. What I done to you, I will never forgive myself and I don't expect you to forgive me either". He couldn't believe that she had worked it out. He looked down and shut his eyes, he couldn't believe that he had done this.

He listened to her ask why he came here and looked into her eyes, "I didn't know you attended this school. I didn't even know you lived in this town. When I gave you up for adoption, I didn't want to find you again. I didn't want to risk ever hurting you again". He sighed and pushed a chair to the middle of the room, placing a little box on it. Inside the box was a small necklace, which was engraved with the words, 'I'm Sorry'. He nodded to it and walked away, "I always carried this on me, just incase I ever got the chance to see you again".

[Ivy Faith Jonas]

Ivy stayed on the floor staring at her farther, the man who took her childhood away from her, who scared her for the rest of her life a innocent little girl. Her tears flooded down her face, her hurt and horror showing. "W..why did you do it?" she asked him, her whole body still shaking in fear that he would hurt her again, would anyone be around to save her this time? "i... i cant think straight" she said, annoyed with herself. Ivy think straight, this is your dad! he hurt you, he did that to you! She told herself scared.

Her hands hovered over the box he moved to her, they was shaking, not stopping as she picked it up to look at it, she stared for a moment then placed it down "I, i cant have it" she said shaking her head "No, No!" she added "You know i would never forgive you for what happened, i cant forget it, make me forget it! make it all go away please" she begged crying her eyes out even more "Please" she was breaking down even more. She felt as if she should forgive him, but she didn't have the guts to, she was afraid that she will forgive him for him to hurt her again.

[Cassidy Logan Spears]

Cassidy walked over to the wall Ivy was sat against and sat a distance apart from her, staring down at the floor. "I told you, I was mentally unstable. I didn't know what I was doing. And that's why I had to give you up, because I could never look you in the eye again". He twiddled his thumb and stared down to floor.

He picked the box up and actually took it to her, "Please, you don't have to where it. But I want you to have it". He sat next to her and put his arm gently around her, "I've changed. I have never wanted to hurt you. Please, can we try and talk this through".